I’m all about counting our blessings and looking for the silver linings. But some situations really are much more difficult to let go of than others.
And I’ve been beating myself up with the time it has taken me to bounce back. Why can’t I just move on? Why can’t I let it go?
Healing is a gradual process. It takes the time it takes. Whether you call that divine timing, or just call it life, we all need to relax and go with the flow more often.
So, I want to share a little of my story. My hope is that you will be inspired to keep moving ahead with your life. And to let it go. Whatever it is that needs to be let go of, let it go…
Trigger Warning–Stalking
Last Saturday was the 7 year anniversary of a hate campaign against me started by an emotionally unbalanced woman. That’s right, a hate campaign started on Valentine’s Day! A little ironic, I think.
Simply stated: For 2 years I was cyber-bullied & hounded.
Initially, this women had a little gang of supporters. Who all fell by the wayside as the stalking accelerated.
I was falsely accused of everything from misrepresentation to sexual assault. And I was investigated by professional organizations, government bodies and even the police. Finally, I was proven innocent of every single accusation.
That’s right. It was all fabricated.
But it was a living hell.
And part of me shut down.
2015. The year I choose to let it go. I’m out of the shadows!
Yes, seven years to let go. I can honestly say there were times I didn’t know what to do. So, I reached out to counselors, police officers, social workers. I asked the angels to help me. And I prayed and meditated. In addition, truth be told, I spent a fortune on legal fees.
My friends rallied around, but I still felt like hell. Why would someone make up lies and try to destroy my career? And destroy me personally…the phone calls + emails telling me she’d only stop once I’d taken my own life.
Why did some people drop away, believing the lies? Why, why, why?
The healing begins when you stop looking at why people behave the way they do. And start to look inwards.
I even beat myself up with that. Why had I attracted this? Damn you Law of Attraction! What had I done wrong?
And how will I ever feel safe again?
My friend Ade reminded me that the human body takes seven years to re-make every single cell. I’m a new person. I like that.
Was it a lesson from the Universe? Dunno. I’ve stopped asking questions.
I’ve come to a place of ‘let it go’.
Acceptance, if you will. This happened to me. It sucked. If I don’t want to continue hurting, I have to let it go. So, that’s what it takes to heal.
Like the cycle of grief, I have moved from denial, anger, bargaining, depression and now it’s over, Acceptance. I’ve found peace again with my spiritual path.
Sometimes bad things happen to good people. It’s not the law of attraction. It just is what it is.
I’m stronger. I’m more authentic in the way I show up in my own life.
And I’ve learned that ‘what other people think of you is none of your business.’
Haters hate. Period. The end.
If something in the past has damaged you, I encourage you to let it go.
If you need help reach out and get it.
I am becoming more focused on moving ahead with my life’s purpose and passions. Join me.
I transform lives from survival to spectacular. I’m here with a wealth of experiences and a ton of study. I own the fact that I’m a walking encyclopedia of holistic health care info. That’s body, mind, spirit and emotional health and well-being. And I’m coming out of the shadows to help others come out too!
Whatever it takes, let it go. If I can do it, so can you. The first step is Acceptance and asking for help. Turn off the questions and set yourself free.
My wish for you is that my story helps you on your healing journey. If I can do it, so can you. If I can be of further help, please reach out and contact me.
You are beautiful and powerful beyond your wildest dreams. Let it go and open the space for your true self to emerge.
Ade says
Wow, even though I was there at the start of this I had forgotten how much you had gone through, and some if it I didn’t know.
Thank you for sharing this powerful message, it couldn’t have been easy.
I’m glad you are letting go of that hate, I love you xxx
Carol Rosen says
Wow! Jacqueline, you really have been through the wringer and back!!! You have led by experience….so glad you found your way out and decided to share your journey with all of us! ???
Jacqueline says
Thank you Carol. It was a dark night’s journey for sure. By sharing it release the shame and if it helps someone through their own dark nights, then its worth telling. angel blessings.